The Necessity of Nothing

It’s actually happened... Something I have been notoriously good at, has now become an activity I’m horrible at. 

Relaxing..... 

How in the world did that happen??? Going full throttle (or close to it) for the last several months has rewritten the rhythm of my brain, my fingers, my toes. I must be doing something at all times. And it drives me nuts.
There’s always a to-do list in the back of my mind.... always a grocery list in progress on the countertop... always the dread of what must get done before the next day. 

My brain won’t quiet down. I watch the clock, trying to figure out the must-do’s against the want-to’s, and a lot times piddle-times win out not accomplishing anything. 

But tonight.... tonight after rediscovering a playlist I have on Spotify, I was reminded of how I used to sit in the dark in my bedroom years ago and just listen to music for hours. I miss those times. I miss daydreaming... and singing... and studying lyrics to songs.... perhaps even writing my own.... 

So even for just an hour, I want to get caught up in the music and let my mind wander....

Sometimes we just have to turn off the chaos of life and just be. It’s necessary to just do nothing.

It’s not easy, you know.... everything fights against the calm. 

And it could the simple stupid mundanity of life that rises up to get in the way.... wifi goes out and needs to be rebooted so you can stream music, the laptop decides to crawl at a snail’s pace and refuses to open the one app/program you need..... the dog (who has already been out 3 times since dinner) sits and barks incessantly because he is a cantankerous blind brat... (oops, guess that’s just mine.... ) 

Is it possible to just sit for any length of time and just enjoy the semi-stillness? 

But if it happens... if for a brief moment the dogs are still, the music is calming, the washer finally shut off, the brain slows down, the daydream comes into focus.... I pray you let the moment take over and just enjoy the stillness.